Baby Pics

This is a little book I got at the doc's and have been looking at when thinking about decorating the nursery.

These cribs are amazing. They eventually expand into a headboard and footboard for a normal size bed. Sweet action... and a good investment.

Aww. My sister bought me my first maternity shirt. Obviously it's not time to wear it yet... but that time will come soon enough.

Meg also bought me some baby stuff. She insists that I am having twins and so she buys me double everything. Silly girl.

My first congratulations card from Stefanie and Mike. They couldn't have been sweeter.

This is what I call my "create life" notebook. It is kind of a more personal jounal that I am keeping about this experience that I hope to share with my child when they eventually have children. I know... I'm thinking waaay in advance, but it'll happen one day. Just wait.

This is my baby book appropriately named, "The Belly Book." Gotta love that. Meg also bought this for me. She is so kinda and supportive.

This is my belleh at week 6. That's not baby down there. That's just my chubby belly. Hopefully later, it will be easier to make the distinction. Hahaha. I'm at 190 in this pic.

This is my belly at week 5. This is the first "on record" pic of my belleh. Kinda fuzzy. Oh well. I'm at 190 in this pic.

Baby Thoughts

Well, this morning I went in for the last of the 3 hcg tests. I will found out if it is an ectopic pregnancy on Monday. Yay God. I'm hoping and praying that it isn't. I just think that I would be hurting a little more than I am. I mean, yes, I am cramping, but that could be just from my uterus stretching like my Doc. said. That is what I m counting on it being. I don't think that I could handle the alternative. John has been sick the last couple of days, and I haven't caught it yet but I am definately not in the clear. Usually I catch every little thing that comes along. If I don't get it, honestly, I will be very surprised. I really don't wanna get anything though because I have heard that you really have to try hard to NOT get sick while you are preggers. It isn't good for the baby or me. Plus there is an extreme lacking in the number of medications I can take too. I wish today were Monday, just so that I could find out about this whole thing. It's got me on edge. Meggie is also really sick right now. She has a huge UTI infection and kidney infection. She has gone to the ER like twice in two days. Poor girl. I'm pretty tired today. Didn't sleep very well last night. Not sure why. I think it might be because I fell asleep at like 6 and then John woke me up at 7 then I tried to fall back to sleep at 9 or so. Just whacked out schedule. It's weird though because I am so tired all the fricken time. The doc said though, that I would be really fatigued for the first trimester... and well, I am. The other thing is, I haven't really been having the real, honest to God morning sickness. I wonder if maybe, I just won't get it. That would be glorious. Although, everything that I have been reading says that I shouldn't start experiencing it until week 6 or 7. Bummer right? Bleh,

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More baby talk

I keep thinking that this isn't really happening... that I can't really be having a baby. I almost, morbidly, keep expecting to see some huge blood clot AKA miscarage in the toilet, after I pee or something. I know that it is gross, and mildly depressing, but I can't help it.
On a lighter note, I am so incredibly excited about baby. That's what I have taken to calling her. And yes, I think that it's a her. Funny, I know.
I have taken the prenatal vitamin that are necesary for two days now, and neither day I have gotten sick. It's great. I was only sick like last week, but it could be that I am not far along enough to actually encounter morning sickness... ... yet. I am 5 weeks though. It seems so long. So incredibly long because they measure it from the date that you started your last period. Amazing. But the baby inside me has already developed a brain and all it's organs and everything. There is honest to God, a real baby inside me.
John has been so amazing to me lately. Not that he's not normally, but I'm his baby... with his baby. It's awesome. I love being around him right now, and it kinda sucks, because I think he might be sick. He says that he thinks that it is just his allergies, but he's totally just in denial. He's got a cold. I'm gonna get it too. I hate being sick, and I really don't wanna be sick and preggers. Bleh.
I told Stefanie today that I am pregnant. She didn't really seem that surprised. I think Mike might have said something to her. It's cool though. I am just glad that I have someone other than a family member that knows now. :-P And it's important to me that she knows, mostly just because she is my only girlfriend. That's a special thing right there.
Everyone is so happy about our little blessing and I can't wait for the ball to really get rollin on this whole deal. It's glorious.
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I'm Pregnant

I'm pregnant. I'm scared. I'm hurting. I'm worried. I'm pregnant. I'm happy. I have been missing my period for 5 days now, and I know why. I've had these outrageous cramps and I had had not one but TWO negative pregnancy test (before I actually missed my period). These were from urgent care and the hospital. I took one this morning, and before I could even place the stick down, I got a positive. I waited for the two minutes indicated anyhow, thinking it might dissapear, but it only got stronger. Once the two minutes were up, I broke down on the floor CRYING histerically. I'm not sure if it was an upset, happy, scared, weirded out... or what. I guess it was just an ASTONISHED cry. I sat in the bathroom on the floor crying for about 5 minutes. I moved to my bed shortly after that, then, lastly, I decided that I wanted to tell John. When I went into his room, it was 6:30am on August 6th, and just started crying again. Of course he woke up and immediately started hugging me and asking what was wrong... and I told him. "I'm pregnant." And that was it. History was made. Funnily, about 25 seconds after I told him he looked at me and said, "now did you say that you were or you weren't pregnant?" Haha. I said, uhm, "I AM!!!" And then he just held me and couldn't have been anymore supportive. We went and showered together after he held me in his arms for a while and reality is slowly setting in. I am so scared. And so happy. We decided that we weren't going to tell anyone till I started showing and I think that's a good idea. A real good idea. I don't want my job promotion to be jeporadized at work, but then again, how often am I going to make it to the docs and stuff. Guess I will just have to make them on Monday's and hope that no one asks right? So many things are going through my head. And I can't share them with anyone. Just John. Oh God, I am scared. Please don't let me screw this up.

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Name Ideas
Cadence Eileen Dee
Ethan James Dee